on wasting time
september 9, 2024
Well I think it's time for another journal entry! It's been a few weeks since my last one. Time has just flown by. It's weird how fast time passes sometimes. I don't like it! But I think I'm partly to blame in that. Not going to lie, I waste a LOT of time just scrolling social media, sometimes. And it does me 0 good. Sometimes I feel like I'm addicted to information -- like I'm convinced I'm going to find some article, or some tweet, or some youtube video that's going to give me the answer to life, that's going to solve all my problems. I've listened to so many "self-improvement" podcasts over the past year, but honestly I can only think of one that's really stuck out and actually helped me. Was all that time spent on consuming all that content worth it just to find that one gem?
I'm not so sure. I want to say yes, but at the same time, all of the valuable time I sacrificed in order to find that nugget of wisdom could have been spent doing much more important and fruitful things. And I know, I know... it's not time wasted if you're having fun! I hear the choir singing. But was I really having fun? I don't know. I feel like a majority of time I spend online isn't done out of joy or passion, it's just something to do because I don't know what else to do. And I've struggled with this for a long time. When I was a teenager, in an attempt to get myself to spend less time on the computer, I wrote a sticky note on my monitor as a reminder: "The computer is something to do, not WHAT you do."
I feel like I should apply that same philosophy to my phone usage. I've really been thinking about cleaning up my phone, deleting apps, making to into as much of a "dumb" phone as possible so I'm not tempted to flush my precious time down the toilet.
'cause that's one thing I've learned as I've gotten older -- time is really our most precious asset, and we don't know how much we have left.
I have more to say on this topic, specifically how it relates to streaming and content creation in general. But I think I'll save that for another day!
~see ya